Category Archives: Ancestral Series

Moving On

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Do you ever find yourself repeating something that you thought you left behind long ago? Sometimes life is like a geometric equation.  You think you’ve got it; but, all you really had was how to solve that particular problem.  You aren’t yet as skilled as you thought.

A week ago, I sat in meditation trying to rebalance and reground myself from the week’s drama and trauma with certain family members.  I re-visited the dream described in a previous post and saw it differently.  I was swimming away from shore and from other swimmers, seemingly safe, into open water which didn’t have any boundaries. Then a giant appeared and tried to drown me.  That could be analogized to my family members.  Now I see the giant as them energetically saying, “Don’t change your vibration.  Stay with us.”  If I react with resistance and stress, then I’ll stay at that vibration level.  I won’t be able to move on.

I am changing and some who are close to me are no longer pulsating at a compatible level.  It’s not that they want to hold me back.  They are expressing their vibration level more intensely.  Our paths are diverging and they must shout in order to make themselves heard.  Do I return to their path in order to hear them more clearly or do I keep moving in my new direction?

My dynamics with my family are changing.  Change is always challenging.  This is what I need.  This is what I want.  This is what I must do to move forward in my life.  I am closing out an aspect of my relationship with my family because I want a different way of interacting.  I am moving away, swimming away from that shore.

During my meditation, I realized that, many years ago, I created a circle of ancestors whose purpose was to protect me and act as a gate.  I have many ancestors or associated spirits, not all of whom support my particular journey towards where I want to go and what I want to be.  One of the reasons I took psychic classes was because I was very distracted and distressed by many energies coming at me from all different directions.  This was holding me back, so I requested a protective circle of ancestors whose purpose would be to block those spirits impeding my progression.  My circle of ancestors push me, support me, and protect me as I grow to my fullest potential.

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Loosing the Chains

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Full of history, expectations, agreements, obligations

Originally free and mighty

Great

Omniscient love always and forever

Magnificence stolen, traded, given away

Hope and aspiration forgotten

Bogged down by the anchor of

Years of slavery, poverty, lack and limitation

Imbedded in our consciousness although we are abundant

Keeping us from freedom

While freedom stands right before us

Awaiting our recognition

Mama felt like her mama felt like her mama felt

Suffering is the burden, the punishment

Of being human, of being woman

No need to discuss it

No need to communicate at all

Just bear it

Suppress all feelings

Deny any unhappiness

I am happy in my unhappiness for God

Greater will be the grace of God

More golden will be the streets of heaven

The light of the Lord will shine brighter

The more you suffer

I reject this!!

            You cannot reject yourself.

I resent you!!

            You cannot resent yourself.

I hate you!!

            You cannot hate yourself.

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I Don’t Stand Alone

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Right before I woke up, I had a dream.  I was in open water, but had gone far out by myself.  I could see other swimmers and the shore.  The water was smooth, no waves.  It was a beautiful day.  Suddenly, a very tall man appeared like a giant standing on the water.  He was fully clothed with black hair and a thin mustache.  He looked at me, sank into the water, and began to drag me down.  I screamed for help over and over.  No one could hear me.  The distance between me and the others was too great.  The man pulled me underwater.  I struggled and tried to kick him, but he was too strong.  My last thought before I woke up was, “I’m going to die.”

In my half-dream, half-awake state, I tried to work out a different ending.  I felt that the dream was an exercise.  Something to teach me.  Re-entering the dream, I imagined all of my ancestors surrounding me.  There were too many to count.  You couldn’t even see the shore.  All you could see was the water between me and the man and my limitless ancestors surrounding us.  Then the man disappeared.  He was an illusion.

All of this could be an effect of watching the movie Amistad before I went to sleep.  As well, as I lay in bed, I asked the question, “How will I resolve my current challenge?”  I felt confident that an answer would await me in the morning.  I fell asleep.

Amistad is a true story about Africans who were captured in 1839, sold to Portuguese slave traders in violation of international law, and sold again in Cuba to Spaniards.  Under the leadership of Sengbe Pieh, later called Cinqué, the Africans led a revolt.  Many shipmen were killed except those necessary to return the ship and its surviving captives to Africa.

Unfortunately, the crew steered the ship towards the Americas where they were intercepted by the U.S. Navy.  The Africans were imprisoned as runaway slaves.  Because of international issues of ownership and jurisdiction, the disposition of the captives was ultimately decided by the U.S. Supreme Court who, after three years, ruled in favor of the Africans who were freed and returned to their homeland.

In the movie, while awaiting the Court’s decision, John Quincy Adams tried to emotionally prepare for an adverse judgment.  Cinqué, responding emphatically, referred to his ancestors:

We won’t be going in there alone.  I will call into the past, far back to the beginning of time, and beg them to come and help me.  At the judgment, I will reach back and draw them into me and they must come.  For, at this moment, I am the whole reason they have existed at all.

Something stirred within me as I felt the profundity of this statement.  They must come, for I am the reason for their existence.

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Ancestral Memories and Agreements

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Is there a memory of failure within you that causes you to believe that, no matter how much you achieve, something will happen to bring you down?  Despite all that you have, do you still need more to satisfy your craving for security?

Each of us chose our particular human embodiment to learn certain lessons in this lifetime.  We hold within and have available to us the experiences of those who came before us.  Past, present, and future are very linear concepts that, given the right environment and conditions, can be experienced and understood in the present moment.

Our minds, on some level, contain all of the memories of all that ever was.  These thoughts may be influencing us in ways in which we are unaware.  They may be preventing us from acknowledging our havingness.

Many of the obstacles blocking an awareness of our havingness are in our subconscious.  One example of a psychic obstacle is an ancestral memory or agreement made prior to birth or conception and usually forgotten.  A pre-birth agreement is the decision by a group of energetic beings to be physically born as family or friends, for example, to assist each other during a lifetime and to grow as a group.  A ready-made spiritual support system was thereby established.  Unfortunately, members of the group may subsequently grow at different rates or move along different paths.

This pre-embodiment energetic agreement can cause some group members to sacrifice their own potential progressions in life and adhere to the level of advancement of the group.  Those members can’t seem to pull away from a family’s destructive or non-productive environment.  Developing a physical distance may not be possible or desirable.  A solution may be to identify and break free of the ancestral agreement.

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Our Connection to God

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I was thinking about how we got so far away from God, from Spirit, from our connection with Nature.  In ancient days, people reportedly could actually hear and see a physical presence of the Creator or Spirit as, today, we see each other.  What happened to those capabilities?

All wisdom traditions have a creation story where the original Earth beings had direct communication with their Creator.  Most indigenous cultures had personal contact with their spiritual ancestors who protected and guided them.

We can see reasons for the current disconnect in our known history.  I remember the film “Daughters of the Dust,” about a community in coastal South Carolina where the descendants of former West African slaves continued to practice the Yoruba traditions of their ancestors.  I felt sad after watching it.  I understood why the young people left the island.  They wanted to be modern.  They wanted to have more, to be more.  They didn’t want to live the same life over and over.  Ultimately, those indigenous ways went the way of the wind.

Each generation that relinquishes ancestral teachings contributes to the dilution or extinction of that knowledge and connection with the earth and spirit and life itself.

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