There is an indescribable feeling that I get in meditation or after yoga, even when I have monkey mind throughout (thinking of bills, chores, and people). It may last for only a few seconds; but, the memory of that feeling makes me want more. That’s why I always return to yoga, meditation, and other transformative practices, and read and listen to varying sources of wisdom. I am repeatedly led to this feeling, however brief, that is hard to describe. Is it peace? An opening or space? A flow? An awareness?
I have similar experiences with eating. I became a vegetarian after visiting my sister. After six months, I craved my favorite meat dishes and returned to habitual ways of eating. My body reacted. It was though my system had cleansed itself and was clear. When I resumed eating meat, grease, and other fatty foods that usually accompanied my meals, I began to experience indigestion and feeling uncomfortably stuffed. In general, I did not feel well. I realized that, prior to my vegetarian experience, I considered this state normal.