My meditation this morning focused on seeing light everywhere.  I was trying to reconcile this statement with my not wanting to be around negative people.  Why do I not see their light?  Why can I not disregard what I see and hear?  Why is my light not bright enough to dispel darkness?  I decided that I’m just not “there” yet.

Towards the end of my meditation, I perceived that negativity is an illusion.  It seems real.  However, as I grow and begin to reflect upon my inner self that is externally expressing, the illusions begin to disappear.  My ego mind may decide not to be around someone or to eat harmful substances.  It may want to be around light or peace or joy or to be more happy and less angry.

In reality, I am coming into awareness of and in accordance with my True Self.  All else – judgment, categorizing perception – is fading away.  I exist.  I observe.  I am beginning to realize that I am not hurting anyone, nor are they hurting me.  Whatever is going on is a perception formulated through the prism of my mind and that of another.  Each and every one of us exists within our own personal reality, which is within a larger Reality.  We are seeing and experiencing what we are ready and able to see and experience.

My feeling that I am around negativity is actually an attachment to what is not real at this point.  It is me not yet being able to express my truest Self, my authentic Self and, therefore, remaining in darkness because my material mind says that I must be attached to my loved ones, my job, my house, my whatever, instead of simply existing in the Essence that expresses itself as form and substance, but is itself not.

All that I hold dear – abundance, health, security, love – is already me, is already available at all times to me.  It does not come and go or diminish or increase.  Therefore, I don’t need to hold onto what or who I think will give these to me.  I don’t need to believe that I am the provider of these to others.  They have already what they hold dear.  If others express anger towards me because of what they perceive that I am not giving to them, I don’t need to feel guilty or match their emotion. I need simply to become aware that they are experiencing an illusion.  They are not aware of the infinity that is instantly and constantly available to them and so they must project that feeling of lack outward.

I must consistently check my vision and perception in order to be aware of my own illusions.  By my oral and written speech and actions, I strive to awaken awareness of the True Self in me and in others.  Am I internalizing perceived expressions of negativity?  My discomfort is a sign that I need continued practice in accepting the truth of my Being, the reality of Existence.  At all times, I must notice whether or not I am being loving and positive.  My True Self may not be expressing as I would prefer at a particular time and towards a particular person or situation.  Am I aware?  Is my perception clear?  I can strengthen my ability to respond and act towards others as if I see the Truth in them, even when I do not.  I know that it is there.  I know that it exists within me.  That within me is aware of itself in others, even when I am perceiving illusions through the prism of my ego mind.

I feed perceived negative energy by my acquiescence to it.  When I acknowledge what is true, more of it will express in my life.  As I continue to practice, my eyes will open.  I will become more and more unblind.

In the movie The Matrix, the unreal was so real that people had to be hypnotized to enable them to see reality.  Joel Goldsmith states that our beliefs have become so universal that they have become mesmeric in their operation.  Because we are not alert to our hypnosis, we bring about limitation.

We get drawn into the illusions, the games, the vibrations, and the webs such that we forget that we are simply looking at pictures.  We lose ourselves within this fake world and can’t find the door back to reality.  That door is in our minds.  We just have to be silent and remember.  We have to continuously remove the false images surrounding us and focus on the truth.  We can visualize ourselves in the light that will guide us out of the darkness, all of which is within us and created by us according to what we allow ourselves to be drawn to.

We can refrain from certain foods, certain people, or certain situations, not because they are negative, but because they are not in accordance with the direction in which we want to flow.  On my swim team, I change lanes depending upon my abilities and capabilities.  As my skills sharpen or my desires change, I can move into a lane that allows me to grow towards my fullest potential.  Such is life.