For a long time, my life felt like I was in the movie Groundhog’s Day, where a man finds himself living the same day over and over again. I felt like I was in a forest trying to get out and kept ending up at the same tree from which I started. I continuously kept going round and round in a circle until I decided to change me. I began to focus on changing my perceptions and behavior instead of blaming “them” and reflecting on how “they” should be. I began the life-long process of refining and molding myself into what I wanted to see in others and in my life.
More frequently, I recognize how I can better speak and react. After tense interactions, I ask myself, “Were my words and actions loving and compassionate in the face of unfairness and harshness? Did I maintain composure and a steadfastness of being centered in my internal peace and joy? Am I even aware of and, therefore, capable of expressing my internal peace and joy?” Often, the answer is still no; but, I am increasing my self awareness. At least I have a clue as to what I need to work on. I’m not yet out of the forest, but I haven’t seen that tree in awhile.
I now re-define “obstacles” and “failures” as opportunities to evolve. In athletic pursuits, we know that, to become more skillful, we must practice consistently and work on techniques. Developing our inner selves takes the same commitment and perseverance. I commit myself to that strategy.
You may find that your perceived setbacks were actually building blocks that form the foundation of a life that is more in line with your nature than your notions.
For example, sometimes what you believe to be your passion may not manifest according to your exact vision. If you change your perspective and become open and receptive to what is currently unknown, you could find yourself moving with greater speed and clarity towards your destiny.
I want to be a successful writer. However, as I review my primary activities past and present, I see that that I have repeatedly pursued opportunities to increase my knowledge of the Essence of Life. I obtained a masters degree in theology, not a masters in fine arts with an emphasis in writing. I continue to study religions and various Eastern philosophies. I practice yoga. I attend workshops and seminars on opening oneself to Universal Energy. Today, I recognize that my writing is not my primary goal. It is one expression of my journey on the Path towards knowing the Infinity of my Self.