Last night I woke up at 2:30am, worried about how I will pay my various bills. Almost instantly, feelings of peace and happiness overrode and surrounded that anxiety. I feel that I am going to create something and that I’m going to be ok. This time, my creation will come from the peace and joy within me instead of the usual fear and desperation. Therefore, it will be just right for me. It will further my goals and be compatible with the ways in which I want to live and express myself.
I feel a shift. Yesterday, I explained to a friend that we work for years on our swim stroke techniques or on developing a skill or craft. We must have that same intent and perseverance in developing our consciousness. Because we are infinite, there is no end to our evolution. There’s always more to learn and further to expand in every way – energetically, physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually.
When I returned to swimming and bicycling after seven months in recovery from a broken foot, it was like starting over. My ankles and muscles hurt. I was exhausted. I felt as though I was swimming through mud. My coach would say, “Stop focusing on speed. Focus on your technique.” I remembered swimming with another coach who focused mostly on drills instead of straight lap swimming. Her swimmers swam less mileage during workouts, but performed better in competition. Boring and tiresome drills build muscle. They strengthen your arms and legs, which build the ability to utilize correct form. Proper stroke and body position propel you more swiftly with less effort.
Nine months later, “suddenly” I became faster. That’s how I felt last night. “Suddenly” I felt a shift in consciousness, like I know that things will work out. I’m going to be able to keep my house, to pay my bills, and to move more concretely towards my goals.
