Yesterday, I read my horoscope and the movie Groundhog Day was mentioned in such a positive way that I went out and rented the movie. Surprisingly, I found it totally related to my current life. I laughed and cried throughout.

The Bill Murray character, Phil Connors, was bored with life; but, he blamed his state of affairs on other people. Others were to blame for his inability to get a better job and better assignments. People were morons. When he realized that he was living the same day over and over, he started using people, stealing, and otherwise taking advantage of the fact that he knew what was going to happen.

Over time, this got tiring so he tried to kill himself. Here I started crying, realizing that I have also wanted to end my life. But, every day, over and over, Phil Connors experienced his suicide attempts until he realized the fruitlessness of his endeavors. Finally, he started to see things differently. He started to see the beauty in life and how nice people were. He started changing himself.

He gave all of the money in his pocket to a homeless man. Before, if he didn’t have the money in his hand before he walked by, he wouldn’t give it. Now, he stopped, searched for it, and gave all that he found. He knew that the next day would be repeated. He knew that he would have enough money to give. To me, that was profound. I hold on to the little bit that I have. I don’t take for granted that I will have enough tomorrow and my expectations are fulfilled.

Another day, Phil fed the homeless man all that he could eat. Each day, the man died at the end of the day. The day that Phil’s same day experiences ended was the day that he made everyone happy. He did something good for every single person. He fixed a tire that he knew would go flat. He made the townspeople feel that their Groundhog Day festival was significant. He saved a little boy’s life and wasn’t mad when the little boy ran off without thanking him. He was loving and respectful to a woman he liked. On previous days, she had slapped him because of something he said or did.

Phil filled himself with love and poured that love onto others. Tomorrow came and it was what he had always wished for. He was happy. Groundhog Day was very powerful for me. It made me feel that I could create the world that I want if I change myself. If I make myself the kind of person who would live in the world of my desires, I can manifest that world. I can make me a world. All I have to do is live as though such a world exists.

I determined to take my focus away from “what am I getting out of this situation” to “what am I giving to this situation, this person, these people.”