Havingness. That is my challenge at this time in my life. My ability to have all that I need and desire without struggle, without pain, without loss of dignity and sacrifice of self. My ability to have simply as a right of being a creature of the Universe.
The conflict is within myself. Not accepting my right to have. Not being completely aware of my gifts. Not fully comprehending that my unlimited abundance is right before me awaiting my acknowledgement. I keep looking for the key. What else must I do? I believe in my abundance. I accept it, but it has not manifested in the ways that I desire, in the manner in which I define abundance. Why?
Could it be because the very acts of seeking, desiring, and questioning are all proof of a belief in not having? How can you desire that which you already have?